Merry Christmas
The party was very successful and I also got a lot of compliments. But today I felt so tired and weak. Sometimes I doubt myself what I was working so hard for ? Because as soon as my work finished, nobody could know how much I paied and ,what was worse, some poeple would nitpick or be jealous.
Anyway, I am OK and will take care of myself more.
I am still afraid to set up intimate relationship with others, afraid of being hurt by them. I sometimes just want to hide myself somewhere and to be quiet.
Write something happy: I surprised all the guests with my dressing last night and was taken photoes and videos by many poeple ( cheeky smiling )
This should be a happy time for everyone, so I wish all the people in my life happy and healthy....

